♥ Love is the slowest form of suicide ♥

The Memories

Friday, November 06, 2009

Life was actually good.
I have my family, friends and him. School and work.
Until 3 weeks ago.
When a supposedly friend of mine started a huge lie.
Leading to everyone being pissed with me and think I'm just another lying bitch.
Thanks alot, Andrew. You really did alot.
But it's okay. I believe in karma.
Someday the truth will come out and shit will happen to you.
Or maybe you really think this is the truth.
Because if it is, it's either you're dreaming, or that is just too small and you're just bad at it.

Whether or not the rest want to believe me, I know it myself.
My conscious is clear and I did nothing wrong.
You can say whatever you want. It's your words against mine.
They can choose who to listen to.
Just that it's disappointing to know after these years of friendship,
some people have just so little trust in their friends.
But it's okay. Life still go on with or without them.
I still have my family, my bestie and him.
I think my bestie and him are the greatest people on earth.
They stood by me no matter what the situations are.
And they believe in me. These are what i call real friends.
Thanks bestie. ((:

whined by puicheng at
4:22:00 PM

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Thursday, August 06, 2009

Had a new friend in SIM.
Same POA class.
He had been hanging out with my friends and I.
It's great.
The more, the merrier.
And he's quite a fun person to be with.
I should know more people.
If not, school will be boring.
Breaks will be lonely.
Okay. Other than that, school is alright.
Just that the notes are damn thick.
Especially tuesday classes.
Tuesday gonna be a heavy torture day.
):

whined by puicheng at
3:52:00 AM

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Friday, July 31, 2009

School is starting in 3 days. ):
I haven't been to school for so long.
Oh well, at least i met someone who is also going to the same course.
But not sure if we'll have the same lesson on the same day.
Have to check out with her.
And she stays nearby too.
Can go school together. (:
I have a feeling I will get lost in the school. =.=

whined by puicheng at
7:54:00 AM

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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

In the beginning, I thought this song was great.
I mean, the song is still great.
Just that it described how I was feeling then.
It was really weird and empty without you. At first.
My life really did suck without you. Initially.

But now, I think this song is much more suitable.
After thinking everything through, I've moved on.
And I'm glad you did too.
Oh, and hopefully the next one will be as cute as Jiro.
Haha. Out of point, I know.

Yes, you're not as bad as some in terms of character.
In fact, you're better and I'm thankful for that.
Even though you use your ass to think most of the time.
At least, you don't have a habit of exaggerating.
Nor do you have a chronic lying disease.

But you're one of the worst partner anyone could have.
You don't try, and you don't do anything.
You just took everything for granted.
It was really suffocating being your girlfriend.
Being in a stagnant relationship.

I think we had some communication issues.
I don't know anything much about you.
Except of those on the surface.
Like what you drink and blah blah blah.
But deep inside I can say, I don't even know you at all.
We are just like two strangers, trying to make the impossible work.

So now, I'm just glad that things had ended.
It's time I stop deceiving myself, that there is a future with you.
Everything now is back to normal.
My life doesn't suck without you now.

whined by puicheng at
3:22:00 PM

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I am finally free.
I've gotten rid of the ring on my finger.
I've stop waiting by the phone.
I'm no longer looking at the past messages.
And I've stop thinking how have you been.
It's over for good.

Sometimes I think I'm really a fool.
Really a dumb ass.
I'm the one who wanted to thing to end.
The one who wanted to let go of everything.
The one who didn't want to try anymore.
But yet, it took me longer to move on.
Seriously, how stupid can someone get?
Definitely not as retarded as me.

I've done the eCR thing for school already.
I have selected my units for the year, not as if i have much choice anyway.
And I have the timetable out already. Heh.
And i found out other friends are in SIM too.
Maybe it won't be that lonely anymore.
In fact, I'm getting quite excited for school.
School will be starting in about 3weeks time.
((:

whined by puicheng at
3:46:00 AM

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Sunday, July 12, 2009

It's been 2 weeks already.
And it doesn't hurt that much anymore.
In fact, I think I'm getting over it.
I guess I got to thank all the distractions that I'm having.
Maybe sooner or later, I wouldn't feel weird, empty and naked without your ring.
((:

School is starting soon.
Got to register for the units and all the timetable thingy.
I think I'm gonna be more anti-social compare to jc days.
Don't think I will have the energy to make new friends.
I guess secondary school days are the only days I actually make an effort to make friends.
Muahahahaha. Hopefully mints will be having about the same timetable.

whined by puicheng at
8:29:00 PM

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Thursday, July 09, 2009

To the world, you are just one person.
But to one person(me), you are the world.

whined by puicheng at
9:21:00 AM

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Tuesday, July 07, 2009

My heart still has that aching feeling.
I still think about those days, when i thought we had a future.
When you said we would be together forever, I thought that meant until we died.
But I guess forever is not as long as we thought it would be.

Before, I hoped that you had at least put in abit of effort into this futile relationship, but you never did.
Now, I just wish that all this had never happened.
And i would be saved from all these wretchedness.

I know we were never meant to be.
So i plan to forgive and forget.
Forgive myself for being stupid, and forget you ever existed.

If I knew that it was going to hurt this bad,
I would have never had told you, "I love you".

whined by puicheng at
9:39:00 AM

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